Lately, my temper has gone from bad to worst. Even my parents notice that. I tried my best to hide it all for my own but I can hardly do it. Thing gone even worst today. I shouted on the phone, yelling on the phone. Sigh. God, mind to show me a correct path to lead me out from here ?
My parents worry about me as they have no idea what's going on. I wish to tell and yes, today I told my mum. But I know my mum gonna worry about what's going to happen soon. Well, I don't wish to burden my parents for my own problems.
Friends. Lot of people think I know lot of people which directly make them think that I got lot of friends. Heck, I can use my 10 fingers to count not more then 5 people I actually can share my problems, my doubts, my happiness and etc.
Photography. I get into photography. Lot of people thought I want to know some super hot babes, or super cun chick but I never really thought of that. Seriously. I never really into portrait shooting or model shooting. Many think that I'm wasting my cash, I'm wasting my time and this ain't a cheap hobby. But who will know I actually take up this photography just because I know I'm gonna be alone starting this coming November till June of next year ?
I'm kinda scare the day of November to be here. It's sound so soon. No more yumcha everyday, no more Mc Donald's for the whole damn week. God, I dare not imagine that kind of day.
Well, I think that's not the most important I'd like to say in this post. Actually I started to blog back at here is the main blog of mine has too many attention from non related person. I don't really wish my thoughts being read by insincere friend.
A forumer posted this sentence at one of the forum I always hang out. This sentence is freaking true and it some how voices out the situation around me.
My parents worry about me as they have no idea what's going on. I wish to tell and yes, today I told my mum. But I know my mum gonna worry about what's going to happen soon. Well, I don't wish to burden my parents for my own problems.
Friends. Lot of people think I know lot of people which directly make them think that I got lot of friends. Heck, I can use my 10 fingers to count not more then 5 people I actually can share my problems, my doubts, my happiness and etc.
Photography. I get into photography. Lot of people thought I want to know some super hot babes, or super cun chick but I never really thought of that. Seriously. I never really into portrait shooting or model shooting. Many think that I'm wasting my cash, I'm wasting my time and this ain't a cheap hobby. But who will know I actually take up this photography just because I know I'm gonna be alone starting this coming November till June of next year ?
I'm kinda scare the day of November to be here. It's sound so soon. No more yumcha everyday, no more Mc Donald's for the whole damn week. God, I dare not imagine that kind of day.
Well, I think that's not the most important I'd like to say in this post. Actually I started to blog back at here is the main blog of mine has too many attention from non related person. I don't really wish my thoughts being read by insincere friend.
A forumer posted this sentence at one of the forum I always hang out. This sentence is freaking true and it some how voices out the situation around me.
感情经得起风雨，却经不起平淡；友情经得起平淡，却经不起风雨~
Sometimes, I getting tired of the interaction between humans. Frankly, I'd prefer to stay away from the city, have myself sit in front of my PC, chat with my friend instead. Besides, it let you think twice before you type a sentence. Words utter out from your mouth can hardly take back. Things that has been done can hardly undo it.
I used to come across one of the sentence by a famous blogger. He said " How nice is Friendster. We can choose to add, edit and delete a friend. If only we can do it in real life.. "
Things getting really complicated. My group of friends, has started to get into this situation. Well, at first I'm still kinda neutral towards it since it's nothing really related to me but times goes by, time getting worst. When a person tend to get attention from a group of friends, the situation goes worst as that particular person already leave a bad impression towards the whole group of friend.
Just now, a friend of mine told me about one of my friend whom also her friend. Well, seriously how come the interaction betweens human can be so complicated. Thought life should be an exciting, full with challenges but not human and human problems ?
Sometimes, I really getting tired of being human. Too much problem, too little solutions.
I wonder what will happen when May arrive and stepping into 21 years of living in this world. I wonder.
I used to come across one of the sentence by a famous blogger. He said " How nice is Friendster. We can choose to add, edit and delete a friend. If only we can do it in real life.. "
Things getting really complicated. My group of friends, has started to get into this situation. Well, at first I'm still kinda neutral towards it since it's nothing really related to me but times goes by, time getting worst. When a person tend to get attention from a group of friends, the situation goes worst as that particular person already leave a bad impression towards the whole group of friend.
Just now, a friend of mine told me about one of my friend whom also her friend. Well, seriously how come the interaction betweens human can be so complicated. Thought life should be an exciting, full with challenges but not human and human problems ?
Sometimes, I really getting tired of being human. Too much problem, too little solutions.
I wonder what will happen when May arrive and stepping into 21 years of living in this world. I wonder.
Labels: Thoughts and Musing
